” Sizemore (second from left) is the eldest of four brothers and a sister and admits to being a mommy’s boy - speaks to his mom (in striped robe) two to three times a day.Letting his mother, now 71, down when he was doing drugs is Sizemore’s biggest regret The actor also rubbished claims that he was left homeless by his addiction, ‘homeless my a**’, he says.
He recalls visiting Downey in 1999 at California State Prison in Corcoran – otherwise known as the California Substance Abuse Treatment Facility and State Prison or Corcoran II.'I remember walking into that prison and thinking, how in the world did the finest actor of my generation end up like this.'He's the most inventive and creative actor I've ever met and now this guy is flat broke, hopelessly addicted to heroine and crack and he's doing two years in California State Prison.'And I walk in there and the sobering reality of what had happened to his life and I said to myself, I will never let this happen to me.'And then lo and behold in 2005 I'm there too, I had a brief stay at Corcoran.'Sizemore details his hell behind bars and how - targeted because of his Hollywood status - he had 11 fights in his first week in a bid to stay alive.'I grew up in a tough area, I'm not afraid to fight, I don't wanna fight, but I had to fight,’ he recalls.'I didn't really win any fights but I didn't back down,‘It was so scary, I was gonna get hurt.'If somebody had killed me he would have gotten some kudos, "I killed Tom Sizemore, that actor," and he's like a hero.'Sizemore’s hair transplant surgery was carried out by Dr.
Ben Talei, facial plastic surgeon and medical director at the Beverly Hills Hair Group . Talei uses a refined version of the revolutionary procedure called follicular unit extraction (FUE), which gives a natural look, without scarring and costs between ,000-,000Sizemore says he stayed alive by listening to one of the old timers on his row who told him not to leave his cell.'He was right, the inmates want to break your heart because they're hearts have been broken, so I didn’t leave my cell for the next seven months,' he said.
Cocaine was being passed around the room and he took it because ‘everyone else did.’'I walked out on to the balcony and it really felt like Christmas and my birthday and the first time I got a piece of a** all rolled up into one.‘My head exploded, everything was more colorful and I was like, "this is what I've been missing, this is why everyone is so happy."‘It made me feel like this is who I am, I'm with it now, I'm connected, I'm excited.'But two weeks later, after continually taking the drug, Sizemore found himself in the throes of addiction.
His next role was Natural Born Killers – in which he played the part of Detective Jack Scagnetti - and he decided he had to stop doing drugs - but that proved difficult.'I threw all my drugs away, I didn't want to mess this up, but the next morning I couldn't get out of bed. At the same time, Sizemore also tried to tell his mother, Judith, about his addiction.'I ran all these things through my head what I was going to say to her, but then I saw her face, I just couldn't ask her for help, I couldn’t tell her about the drugs,' he said.
As a teenager his mother had always told him to stay away from drugs.
The star recalls the first time he ever took cocaine was at a party at the home of an A-list actor (whose name he won’t divulge).
He is sober and set to return to the big screen after a decade He recalls seeing his successful acting career – starring alongside the likes of Tom Hanks, Robert De Niro, Woody Harrelson and Al Pacino - crumble around him, his bank balance and the trappings of fame vanish overnight, and tells how he hit rock bottom when forced to squat for two years in a building with no electricity or running water, whiling away the days smoking crystal meth.’My life’s gotten a lot better, it’s been a real chronicle, but I’ve got a long history of substance abuse, I was in a really bad place,’ he explains.‘And I’m coming up on four years sober, it was really difficult, the first two years were miserable I thought I’d never smile again.‘But I am smiling again, you’ve got to stick around until you feel better.’And Sizemore, 55, knows that if he keeps it together the work will flood in.‘I’m good at this acting thing,’ he says with a wry smile.
The enigmatic actor says he’s lost ‘nothing off my fast ball’ when it comes to his art.‘I’m a pitcher, an older pitcher now, and I used to throw 98 mph and I still throw 98 mph when I’m acting.’But he’s also realistic that he needs to stay away from drugs and booze‘If I can’t stay sober, put me in a field and get rid of me, I’m no good anymore.‘Drugs are a progressive disease, if I do drugs again I go right back to where I was before, I was ineffectual, I could barely get dressed, I was hopeless.’Sizemore admits, however, that moving in showbiz circles does mean he is presented with the temptation of drugs - something he knows will be difficult to avoid.
Sizemore plays Bill Sullivan in the movie, one of two of Felt’s rival FBI agents.
He is also one of the leads in the Twin Peaks re-boot and appeared on the USA Network drama Shooter.
Sizemore – who is the eldest of four brothers and a sister and admits to being a mommy’s boy - speaks to his mom two to three times a day.